Lately … I’m in a funk. It’s a everyone-I-know-is-engaged-married-pregnant-and-I’m-not funk.
I’ve tried fighting it, I’ve tried to live in the moment and enjoy life as it happens.
I try to enjoy the journey not just the destination.
Because I know that I am blessed so much more then so many people are …
But its hard. It’s hard to watch the people around you get everything you want.
It’s even harder to see people who don’t necessarily deserve it get it.
It’s hard to not feel a twinge of jealousy.
It’s hard to put on a happy face when on the inside you want to cry.
It’s hard to know that everything I dream of and for will happen but still have to wait.
I just want my moment … I want my dream. So I wait …